Life Goes On

Another week later and still no signs of change for Aaron and I. Still waiting on Health Insurance to get figured out and kick in so I can go to the Dr. and hopefully get some things straightened out with my cycle. Its looking like, due to some budgeting things, we will have to wait until June 1 for insurance to kick in. I am very thankful that we are getting much better insurance soon, I'm just having a very hard time waiting right now. Every morning I take my waking temp and it never varies more than a couple .1 degrees different so I know nothing is changing with my body. What has struck me so much in the last couple of days is how sad I feel when I realize that life goes on. I refrain from checking facebook more than 2x a day just because I don't want to see all the pregnancy announcements and new babies born. I think with a lot of things in life, the fact that life is moving on  when something so hurtful has happened is the most painful part. I feel like I am missing out on things that it feels like most of my peers are experiencing now. While it would be very very easy for me to wallow in my self pity for an extended length of time, I know that whether I conceive a baby or not, my eternity will be exactly what my Creator intended it to be when He created me. It just might not look like what I intended it to be but I know that He is much wiser than I am. I do not want to look back at this time and see that I wasted it and missed out on the experiences I was given because I was wishing for one I was not.